Today I was presented with an opportunity to do something that I've been longing to do for a long time now. I didn't think it would even be a possibility for at least a few years, so I honestly hadn't even considered doing it anytime soon.
This afternoon a friend was talking to me about this topic and I told her I would love to do that....someday. She asked why not now? I told her that certain things that I thought were really unlikely would have to happen first. Not five minutes later the biggest of the things I had mentioned to her happened. And all of a sudden it seems like doors that I thought would be tightly shut have swung wide open.
Ack! I have a big decision to make and a deadline to make it in. I need God's guidance in a serious way. If I do this thing, I want it to be God's will and not just mine. ('Cause mine says yes automatically.) If it's just my will, then I don't want to do it. And if it is His will, He will make a way. This I know.
So I'm going to seek Him out these next few days and listen for His voice.
I know I've been really unspecific on purpose (which for me is not normal), but if you think of me, will you pray that I would hear clearly what God is saying to me? I struggle with that sometimes. I need clarity.
2 comments:
totaly be praying for you and if you need someone to talk it through you know my numbers...
I'm stalking you on your personal blog, hope that's ok :)
I'll definitely be thinking of you. It's so hard when you can't see what God wants. He works in mysterious ways, but *come on*... :)
I hope you've found some guidance!
Praying.
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